The Truth Is....

I am having a really hard time with Evan starting kindergarten. I feel that it is normal but I am literally shedding tears everyday. I have started to poke around at working from home and getting my masters (prob not gonna happen - way too much $$$$$). I should have pursued teaching after Evan was born, although I dont regret getting out of mom and dads asap then either :)I really want to be home with Levi as much as I can. Or at least be able to spend more summer time with them. This year at work summer has been brutal. It got soooo bad. I cry now thinking about how much heart goes into my job and not into my kids all day. Work is stressful or I am not one to take the stress of a DEMANDING job easily. There is no amount of money that should make things seem backwards like they do while I slave to it all day everyday. One good thing is that I think Brian will be home with the boys each morning until Evan is taken to school. Then Brian and Evan will have naptime until I pick Evan up from kindergarten and come home to my boys. This makes me feel better. That is if he can do it... We dont know until we try. He is in school still so a few days a week they will be with Jill. The decision has been made that my mom will not spoil the boys anymore during the day. haha. No, it was just too much more stress.... Anyway, we are headed to Michigan in the morning. I am soo excited to get some Deb time. And for her to have some boys time.... We are going to back to school shop. Or start to school shop, I think. The list they gave me of things to get has definitely increased by about the value of 30 boxes of tissues per student. Ok, Im off to pack and get some sleep before daring to drive my half asleep family 3 hours in the am. Have a great HOT summer weekend!